Boring

去年今天，我还在犹豫，还在担心，还在忐忑，还在怨恨，还在努力地把自己想要做好的东西做到完美。

去年今天，我还是幼稚，还是单纯，还是无知，还是胆怯，还是依然那样的傻乎乎以为努力始终有回报。

去年今天，我在期待，在徘徊，在等待，在让心灵的伤变成记忆，变成免疫。




我中学小学11年读书生涯，非常非常非常充实。
我遇上了我很好很好很好的朋友，很珍惜很珍惜很珍惜的情谊，很珍贵很珍贵很珍贵的记忆。
谢谢生命给我机会，让我尝试那一点点的与众不同。
做不到最好，也做不到没有遗憾。只有做到让自己不会埋怨自己就好。

贪心的我，我还要让生命非常非常非常非常非常非常非常x1000000000 倍的充实。



前面的路，看来要一个人走了。
很多声音，很多闪烁的灯光。
慢慢走，我不能慢慢走。
走太快，怕错失太多，容易跌倒。

我害怕迟到，更害怕找不到，所以只有一只走一直走。
我会回头，因为我要扶着人一起走，我喜欢跟在我后面的人有安全感。
这样，让我也有安全感。
我不怕跌倒，但是有人会为我的跌倒而伤心。
我不跑，就来不及。跑太快，就遍体鳞伤。


我要跑，我要跑，就算气喘，我也要跑。
朋友，对不起，相信我，我一定会回来带你们的。
也许，你已经不需要我带，而且跑在我前面了，对吗？



choices choices choices, I love them I hate them.
they make you indecisive, they make you go for the extreme.

I gotta move fast. I have to move fast. I do not hate to be slow.
I just want to get in front.
I just need to be in front.
I'm not that tall. I gotta go far. So far that I can see everything.
Everything I need to see.
And I want to see it before anyone does.

that's why I like to do the impossible.
Well, not the impossible impossible.
its the possible but yet so impossible, because no one's doing it.

Thank you my friend, for making the impossible possible.
And making me proud of myself, proud of you guys, and proud to be someone somewhere down the memory lane.

I would like to do more, have more, see more, experience more, love more.
some kit kat sometimes is fine too. but not too much.





Btw, I have to say sorry. sorry for not getting what I promised, sorry to make you feel angry or disappointed. I'm trying my best to juggle everything, please let me continue juggling.
I cannot do one thing at a time, I do not have the time.
I have no right to snatch away your chance to enjoy that opportunity, it is avoidable.
I'm just, sorry.
sorry, I can't do that just yet. I still need more training.
sorry, I hope I can satisfy everyone. Bear with me, I'm sure you already are.
Sorry I like to screw your life, I didn't know I'm doing it. Please, tell me if I am.


new year wish: Dude, I sure wish I have xyz ray vision.




*infected with zhensern's emoness.